BEAUTIFUL IN ALL SEASONS

Everyone is on the same treacherous journey of life’s tainted glory.  Our experience are different yet the same. We are in control, we have a plan, we are disappointed, we get hurt, we are loved we feel at home, we are rejected, we feel betrayed. With life and its entanglements we find ourselves moving on without being one with the journey. We move with our mind onto tomorrow. We can’t wait to get there. It’s almost as if today is non existent on our itinerary. Today becomes yesterday and we reminisce over it only on the parts that made our hearts leap. We got what we wanted or deserved, or a great surprise. We felt life is fair because it dealt with us justly, or rather it favoured us. We move past yesterday avoiding a thought about its events; when we got disappointed, when life dealt with us unfairly, when hurtful things has happened. I am learning that the pressure on my chest about yesterday, that makes me avoid thoughts or chats that have passed mask a shameful moment. I am a...

  A difficult time is when you find yourself in the middle of nowhere. Lost , instantly when you were certain you are following the right roadmap and certain about getting ahead. I mean , there’s no way you can get lost when you have direction and a plan. Also, you prayed before embarking on a journey, you keep on praying on the way. You are okay so far, got used to the way even though your body feels weird. You feel different and the journey is certainly getting difficult.  You keep on with a slowed pace. I have been living with rheumatoid arthritis from when I was 13. It robbed me of my teenage years. I remember how I battled in class to pay attention to what the teacher was saying because my sore body demanded my full attention. Nonetheless, I forced myself. Affirming myself simultaneously dealing with death thoughts, a rather complicated experience. I made it because I was determined to leave high school with a matric certificate. I remember sitting outside during break, w...