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Without love there are no joys of tomorrow

Everyone is on the same treacherous journey of life’s tainted glory. 

Our experience are different yet the same. We are in control, we have a plan, we are disappointed, we get hurt, we are loved we feel at home, we are rejected, we feel betrayed.

With life and its entanglements we find ourselves moving on without being one with the journey. We move with our mind onto tomorrow. We can’t wait to get there. It’s almost as if today is non existent on our itinerary.

Today becomes yesterday and we reminisce over it only on the parts that made our hearts leap. We got what we wanted or deserved, or a great surprise. We felt life is fair because it dealt with us justly, or rather it favoured us. We move past yesterday avoiding a thought about its events; when we got disappointed, when life dealt with us unfairly, when hurtful things has happened.

I am learning that the pressure on my chest about yesterday, that makes me avoid thoughts or chats that have passed mask a shameful moment. I am ashamed that these things really happened to me. Truth is though, when I keep on ignoring every painful thing about yesterday I will never truly heal. The pain will remain a fresh wound. It will hurt again and again until I can talk about it, until I can slow my thoughts down and seek to understand that that’s part of this human’s experience. It doesn’t speak less of me. With acceptance comes understanding and understanding is friends with peace. Enlightenment: spiritual advancement.

I think when they said time heals, they meant when you make time to sit down with the pain, allowing self to learn about it, asking about it and accepting it for what it is__ it then becomes what was.

Disappointments, pain, anger, bitterness, hate all comes after love. They are a shadow of love. You are disappointed because you were hoping for better. Hope is a symptom of love, passion and light. You are hurt because you were open to it, looking forward to it. You are angry , bitter because you expected more. That is; more honesty, more reciprocity, more loyalty, more kindness, more thoughtfulness, more support, more love. 

In the absence of love is a desert, without water without life. I get it now; when they said ‘stay young at heart’ they meant look forward to life even after the storms. Keep trying again and again and again, eventually you get it and you get it right. 

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