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In my infant understanding: A Prayer

Psalm 40:8

“I delight to do Your will, O my God; Your law is within my heart.”


Prophecy:

I prophesy I will always delight to do Your will; Your law is within my heart.


Thoughts

A couple of hours ago, I was not pleased with the pain You permit on my path. I felt angry, and my soul rejected understanding. What is it I have done to deserve this amount of hurt, to miss out on Your grace, but to be a witness of health accessible to others? I asked myself. I’ve seen You heal; physically, I’ve been in the rooms when You did it. Why is my case seemingly difficult? “What step am I missing?” I’ve continued to ask.


Prayer:

Enable me to find peace, to honor Your will even when it breaks and confuses me, for I’ve known You to be great. I’ve known You to give Your heart to Your people. I pray I accept Your will in the absence of reasoning, just as You gave Your heart in the absence of reasons other than one: that is, because You have loved.


In my infant understanding:  

Love is protective. I’ve felt You protect my spirit, and I need You to know that I know You got me, real good. My spirit and my soul perceive Your love well for me. A million words will never be enough to express my feelings of gratitude. And so, I rely on the Holy Spirit to translate in depth my heartfelt gratitude to You, Father, as words fail to express what I understand about Your love specifically for me. Amen!





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